I got some pretty good photos taken by miss Ashley. She is totally amazing!
I just cant decide which one i want for my senior pic! lol
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Senior Photos!
I got some pretty good photos taken by miss Ashley. She is totally amazing!
I just cant decide which one i want for my senior pic! lol
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Woodleaf
Off to woodleaf. A huge week with younglives. I pray I fall in love with younglives like I fell in love with Capernaum. Pray for me as wdlf is a great but testing place for me. Two weeks of being with great people and god. How lucky am I? Have a good week. See most of you on the bus!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Car wreck
Fun stuff. It's like I have many car wrecks in life
1. I backed up when owen had the door open in my dads car. Wrecked the door and did $2850 on damage to the car next to me. That sucks.
2. I have a huge court thing Friday. My grandfather is probably going to prison for the rest of his life because of me.
3. Going back to paso high.
4. Ben is out of juvenille hall and now into adult court. Which means he will register as a sex offender for the rest of his life.
5. I have no job or money.
6. I have really messes up on some relationships.
7. I might join the army
I don't know what else to say. Just catching everyone up. I'm grounded with no car. But that ends eventually. Really feeling lost and upset. Not sure where to go or what to do. Just move on I guess
1. I backed up when owen had the door open in my dads car. Wrecked the door and did $2850 on damage to the car next to me. That sucks.
2. I have a huge court thing Friday. My grandfather is probably going to prison for the rest of his life because of me.
3. Going back to paso high.
4. Ben is out of juvenille hall and now into adult court. Which means he will register as a sex offender for the rest of his life.
5. I have no job or money.
6. I have really messes up on some relationships.
7. I might join the army
I don't know what else to say. Just catching everyone up. I'm grounded with no car. But that ends eventually. Really feeling lost and upset. Not sure where to go or what to do. Just move on I guess
Monday, May 4, 2009
Africa!
I got a new kitten!
She is feral. (or wild). lol
so i have scratches everywhere. bite marks on my face and hands. i also wake up every three hours! she is a huge pain in the butt, but way super cute!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
My First Fast!
So When i went to LA my friend fasted. I was so curious and I just loved it.
I didn't know I was going to do it on my own so soon.
So i decided I would fast for 12 hours. 8-8. It was intense. The night before I had prepared myself with reading some scripture and praying. I wanted to have set goals of why i was doing this. I fasted for a friends salvation, obedience to god, and for me just to be closer to Him.
I woke up this morning at 7:45 to eat a little something then began my fast! It was very hard. The first 2 hours were easy. then I went to work. My co-workers make fun of me for being a christian so they didnt quite understand. They only tempted me with cookies in my drawer and lots of yummy things. But After constant prayer I was fine. The hunger pains subsided and only god was on my mind. I related my work situation to real life. Temptation. I thought of how they were tempting me to fail just as we are all tempted by non believers.I also learned that really by prayer and fully trusting i can resist that temptation.
I also learned how good it feels to be in the word so much and to be in constant connection and really put god first. something i have been putting off.
With work, school, and relationships i put god on the backburner. which is not working for me. I learned so much today. I am so proud of myself. and I know God is proud to. I didnt think i would make it, but i think he knew all along.
I wanna pursue my own relationship with christ. I'm ready to not be so dependent on others. there is no middle man. just me and him.
I didn't know I was going to do it on my own so soon.
So i decided I would fast for 12 hours. 8-8. It was intense. The night before I had prepared myself with reading some scripture and praying. I wanted to have set goals of why i was doing this. I fasted for a friends salvation, obedience to god, and for me just to be closer to Him.
I woke up this morning at 7:45 to eat a little something then began my fast! It was very hard. The first 2 hours were easy. then I went to work. My co-workers make fun of me for being a christian so they didnt quite understand. They only tempted me with cookies in my drawer and lots of yummy things. But After constant prayer I was fine. The hunger pains subsided and only god was on my mind. I related my work situation to real life. Temptation. I thought of how they were tempting me to fail just as we are all tempted by non believers.I also learned that really by prayer and fully trusting i can resist that temptation.
I also learned how good it feels to be in the word so much and to be in constant connection and really put god first. something i have been putting off.
With work, school, and relationships i put god on the backburner. which is not working for me. I learned so much today. I am so proud of myself. and I know God is proud to. I didnt think i would make it, but i think he knew all along.
I wanna pursue my own relationship with christ. I'm ready to not be so dependent on others. there is no middle man. just me and him.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
L.A.
The city of angels!
What a trip!
lol.
Lets starty off with I arrived in a cowboy hat and boots.....lol. I had no idea L.A. was so big yet cramped!
I don't go to big cities.
I had tons of fun. in three days i think i had a total of 12 hours of sleep! I don't like LA but i loved being with work crew friends. It pointed me in a better direction with my faith. And it helped me concentrate on the amazing meaning of Easter. He is Risen!
I was in a tv show as an extra! Saw some crazy people! It was something I have never experienced ever! But I loved it. I will be going back again!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Spring Break!
Spring Break is not the same this year. As a kid I was happy i got 2 weeks of lazy days. But since I'm in idependent studies its different. I have a job. My job doesnt have a spring break. lol. So i keep watching My brother go to Concerts in San Francisco and Go to Santa barbara, while I go to work! I feel like an adult with kids. It kinda sucks. So after thinking about it, I took next week off and i am catching a train to LA. I am a small city girl. I have never seen big cities except for Las Vegas and I was amazed. So i'm excited to stay there for a few days. Meeting some friends from work crew and summer staff. I am so excited! I will be sure to post pics when i get back. My friends keep saying little redneck is comin to the city. So they asked that I bring some redneck clothes. lol. I will be arriving in my cowboy hat! lol. I already know I am gonna miss the stars from the lake!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Something I wrote.
Coping is never an easy thing for me. So i wrote like this. when your in a mood i guess it just comes out the way its supposed to
You get the phone call from the one you love saying that sweetie I am very sick, but I know I will be okay. The one you love is a mother, grandmother, sister, and most of all friend. They say I will have a few sick days and then all will be well. I am a survivor and I believe I can beat this. You are sad, but you pray and hope that their faith in believing is enough. Time passes and you think nothing of the illness. You only think of the limitations it has put them in. On the rough days you sit there by bed side knowing and fully believing they will recover from this. You don’t tell anyone because you know this is just a chapter in our lives and it will pass. You are not sad for you know there is no reason to be. Then once again you get the phone call. This time she says I am going in for surgery, I love you, see you when I am done. You head to the hospital only to hear they couldn’t perform the surgery she only has a few more days to live. You’re crushed. She is supposed to make it. The next few days you never leave the hospital. You sleep in her room, eat with her, hold her hand, and just listen to her even when she makes no sense anymore. A week goes by. She shows signs of improvement and gets to go home. You’re feeling better so you don’t spend all waking hours with her. You hang out with some friends and start to lighten up. Then you get the phone call. This time it isn’t her. Its another loved one saying she went home to Jesus come say your goodbyes. You feel horrible. You weren’t there. Even if you were there was nothing you could do. The fact of there is nothing you could have done consumes your mind and tears you down. But you have to let go. And you still have to believe. You still visit her, just now her spirit is with God and her body lies in the ground. You miss her and as hard as it, you know you will see her again.
You get the phone call from the one you love saying that sweetie I am very sick, but I know I will be okay. The one you love is a mother, grandmother, sister, and most of all friend. They say I will have a few sick days and then all will be well. I am a survivor and I believe I can beat this. You are sad, but you pray and hope that their faith in believing is enough. Time passes and you think nothing of the illness. You only think of the limitations it has put them in. On the rough days you sit there by bed side knowing and fully believing they will recover from this. You don’t tell anyone because you know this is just a chapter in our lives and it will pass. You are not sad for you know there is no reason to be. Then once again you get the phone call. This time she says I am going in for surgery, I love you, see you when I am done. You head to the hospital only to hear they couldn’t perform the surgery she only has a few more days to live. You’re crushed. She is supposed to make it. The next few days you never leave the hospital. You sleep in her room, eat with her, hold her hand, and just listen to her even when she makes no sense anymore. A week goes by. She shows signs of improvement and gets to go home. You’re feeling better so you don’t spend all waking hours with her. You hang out with some friends and start to lighten up. Then you get the phone call. This time it isn’t her. Its another loved one saying she went home to Jesus come say your goodbyes. You feel horrible. You weren’t there. Even if you were there was nothing you could do. The fact of there is nothing you could have done consumes your mind and tears you down. But you have to let go. And you still have to believe. You still visit her, just now her spirit is with God and her body lies in the ground. You miss her and as hard as it, you know you will see her again.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Yesterday!
I watched three kids.
Jayden Jack and Tanner.
OMG!
These Kids are great but all three together, wow.
I have never worked so hard babysitting in my life. I ended up crying after i left! lol
I have a huge respect for moms!
I don't think i could ever be a mom. lol.
Thru the hitting, pushing, diapers, temper tantrums, and arguing, i actually had some fun. we flew a kite watched some dora and played like we were planes. What a great oppurtunity that was for me. I survived :)
so cheers to the mothers! I think you all are crazy!
Jayden Jack and Tanner.
OMG!
These Kids are great but all three together, wow.
I have never worked so hard babysitting in my life. I ended up crying after i left! lol
I have a huge respect for moms!
I don't think i could ever be a mom. lol.
Thru the hitting, pushing, diapers, temper tantrums, and arguing, i actually had some fun. we flew a kite watched some dora and played like we were planes. What a great oppurtunity that was for me. I survived :)
so cheers to the mothers! I think you all are crazy!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Bruizers!!!
Yes!
The bruizers won tonight 10-7 against team inferno!
Next game is saturday At 11 @ liberty High. Maybe pitching?
lol
Come watch me hit! I am a slugger!
The bruizers won tonight 10-7 against team inferno!
Next game is saturday At 11 @ liberty High. Maybe pitching?
lol
Come watch me hit! I am a slugger!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Sadness
Its sad that Amanda took her own life. I didnt even know her that well but it still makes me sad. It makes me think of all the other people I have lost. I'm just sad! I just, I know that feeling of wanting to take my own life. I know how she felt. The feeling like no one was there. and no one cared enough, I know that feeling.
Life sucks dude. I am realizing as I get older to many bad things happen. And it sucks. I'm just so ugh! and sad! I dont even know what to do with myself
Life sucks dude. I am realizing as I get older to many bad things happen. And it sucks. I'm just so ugh! and sad! I dont even know what to do with myself
Saturday, March 7, 2009
college
so many ideas and choices.
my original plan was to just hit 4 year christian college after i graduate. But what college. Colorado christian university, azusa. york. hope. so many colleges.
then a new idea came last night on my date...lol. break from college for missions trip. missions trips have been on my mind so much lately. I want to serve so badly. Im growing up.
Thats weird.
Im growing up and I might be going away. All i can think of is missing the jelsos! and Zack! and young life!
its so weird!
I want to get back in the place i was at when i did work crew. that feeling of yes i am struggling but my god is great. I desire to get back to that.
I wanna serve christ no matter how much i am struggling in life
my original plan was to just hit 4 year christian college after i graduate. But what college. Colorado christian university, azusa. york. hope. so many colleges.
then a new idea came last night on my date...lol. break from college for missions trip. missions trips have been on my mind so much lately. I want to serve so badly. Im growing up.
Thats weird.
Im growing up and I might be going away. All i can think of is missing the jelsos! and Zack! and young life!
its so weird!
I want to get back in the place i was at when i did work crew. that feeling of yes i am struggling but my god is great. I desire to get back to that.
I wanna serve christ no matter how much i am struggling in life
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
today!
I would have to say the highlight of my day was going to the doctors with the jelso Family! lol. Th eappointment was for tanner and it was all the way in slo. so while Janay and Tony took Tanner in, Me and Jayden had a great time just the two of us! We were sorta by the airport so we saw 14 airplanes and one helicopter. we also played like we were planes. and I taught Jayden which buttons to push in an elevator. It was pretty fun! I also learned Jayden can count to ten in spanish! Thank you dora the explorer! lol
Monday, February 23, 2009
official!
I am a purple Zebra!
what you may ask?
lol
That is my softball team!
how great!
Janay and Ashley dont know it yet, but they are gonna wear purple shirts that say hannahs biggest fans!
lol
what you may ask?
lol
That is my softball team!
how great!
Janay and Ashley dont know it yet, but they are gonna wear purple shirts that say hannahs biggest fans!
lol
Sunday, February 22, 2009
very ehhh
so much stuff is happening. not just to me, but also the people around me. It seems like everyone hurts in some way. That makes me sad.
My heart goes out to people I love and that are hurting.
off to church with the jelso fambam. Wish me luck. Its harder than you think!
My heart goes out to people I love and that are hurting.
off to church with the jelso fambam. Wish me luck. Its harder than you think!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
...
I miss Debbie so much. I feel like she would know what to say or do. She was really the only one i could cry to. and shes not here anymore. I need that hug when im so sad. i need that person to not let go. I dont want them to say it will be okay. I want them to say its ok to cry right now and just let me cry. The people i push, i want you to come get me. The one person i want to do that, i keep hurting and pushing away. Im sorry. I cant say that enough right now.
Just Saying...
My thoughts. Bear with me as i ramble.
I am i think just frustrated with Life. I will just hit some topics, I just need a release. I am killing myself by keeping it in.
Zack. I love you. I wish I could give you more time. I wish i could spend all of my time with you. But i just cant. And i feel terrible about that. I am always so busy. Im sorry. God. Zack deserves more and better attention from me. also self control is huge right now. we are both struggling with our old habits and such. Either way, I love Zack. No one understands how I feel about him. I cant even describe it.
Lippy. I love you as my best friend. But i am so concerned about health. Im scared. I can really say that I am scared. And no one is telling me what is really wrong with you. Which makes me even more afraid.
Janay. What the hell is up with us? I am such a bitch. I just want to say sorry over and over again. Yet i feel like my feelings are hurt by you too. You love me, and it just isnt enough....Why is that not enough for me? I dont want to hurt Janay. janay is my hero. i love her and her family.... and damnit i hate it when people tell me its just a hannah mood. stop telling me that. its more than a mood. I am struggling with Life and i just need someone to say i love you and i wont let you fall. just hug me. I wanna cry. I have so much built up in me! I am killing me!
God! Where is he? see i say that and then say to myself you fool why are you rejecting him when he is right there? why is it so hard to pray right now? what is stopping me? We all know i need him so bad right now! So bad!Why am i refusing him? and why am i pushing everyone away?
I feel like no one sees me or can hear me. and theres people right there. like Janay and zack. People love me. why dont i love myself? and why dont i feel the love?
so thats whats happening in my brain. Its full. and my heart is hurting. My heart is really hurting right now. So i ask you pray for me. I was very vulnerable tonight. so please pray for me. cuz i just cant pray for myself.
-me
I am i think just frustrated with Life. I will just hit some topics, I just need a release. I am killing myself by keeping it in.
Zack. I love you. I wish I could give you more time. I wish i could spend all of my time with you. But i just cant. And i feel terrible about that. I am always so busy. Im sorry. God. Zack deserves more and better attention from me. also self control is huge right now. we are both struggling with our old habits and such. Either way, I love Zack. No one understands how I feel about him. I cant even describe it.
Lippy. I love you as my best friend. But i am so concerned about health. Im scared. I can really say that I am scared. And no one is telling me what is really wrong with you. Which makes me even more afraid.
Janay. What the hell is up with us? I am such a bitch. I just want to say sorry over and over again. Yet i feel like my feelings are hurt by you too. You love me, and it just isnt enough....Why is that not enough for me? I dont want to hurt Janay. janay is my hero. i love her and her family.... and damnit i hate it when people tell me its just a hannah mood. stop telling me that. its more than a mood. I am struggling with Life and i just need someone to say i love you and i wont let you fall. just hug me. I wanna cry. I have so much built up in me! I am killing me!
God! Where is he? see i say that and then say to myself you fool why are you rejecting him when he is right there? why is it so hard to pray right now? what is stopping me? We all know i need him so bad right now! So bad!Why am i refusing him? and why am i pushing everyone away?
I feel like no one sees me or can hear me. and theres people right there. like Janay and zack. People love me. why dont i love myself? and why dont i feel the love?
so thats whats happening in my brain. Its full. and my heart is hurting. My heart is really hurting right now. So i ask you pray for me. I was very vulnerable tonight. so please pray for me. cuz i just cant pray for myself.
-me
Friday, January 23, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Tired!
Ya!
I am so tired!
Yesterday I took Groove with Shiloh, I hate groove, but i did sweat and got a little workout. I didnt sweat as much as Janay. lol. But who does? I was all good not laughing to much until Janay did this like just absurd dance move. I know it wasnt sexual, but i just couldnt see Janay like that. its like seeing your parents dirty dancing. Its just weird. Then i took core thinking how hard could it be? I was so wrong! my abs hurt so bad today!
And then Softball! I was surprised i did so well! But i really did good. I am proud of myself. But very sore today.
My schedule today consists of homework, school, movie with Jimmy, and more softball!
I actually like it alot
I am so tired!
Yesterday I took Groove with Shiloh, I hate groove, but i did sweat and got a little workout. I didnt sweat as much as Janay. lol. But who does? I was all good not laughing to much until Janay did this like just absurd dance move. I know it wasnt sexual, but i just couldnt see Janay like that. its like seeing your parents dirty dancing. Its just weird. Then i took core thinking how hard could it be? I was so wrong! my abs hurt so bad today!
And then Softball! I was surprised i did so well! But i really did good. I am proud of myself. But very sore today.
My schedule today consists of homework, school, movie with Jimmy, and more softball!
I actually like it alot
Friday, January 16, 2009
FUN!
Tonight I hung out with Jimmy, Seaira, Rachael, and Brandon. We played poker.... It was pretty exciting.
After that, we just hung out and it ended up me and Jimmy watching movies. I cant really say we did much more but I had a great night with him!
Thats all folks. I Just wanted to say today is a better day than yesterday.
After that, we just hung out and it ended up me and Jimmy watching movies. I cant really say we did much more but I had a great night with him!
Thats all folks. I Just wanted to say today is a better day than yesterday.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Im so done!
My goodness!
Can it just freakin be over?
I am so sick and tired of people looking at me like I am in wrong doin. Yess this is about Zack! You know what I am 16 and i thought i was in love with zack. But he hurt me so bad for the last time. all of those times he was in wrong doing with other girls, i just let it go. and looked like a fool. And finally i stand up for myself cuz he kissed a girl and people see me as the bad person. I brought Jimmy to club. He doesnt really believe in god. he is lost. I want to show him christ thru me and thru club. But people see it as me trying to get back at zack
Why does this stupid teenesge world revolve around Him????
Get a clue. He shows he is hurting. I dont show it! But that doesnt mean i am not hurting. Jesus i am hurting so bad. but it never matters.
I am hurting and it seems like no one cares.
So let me set the record.
Zack is my ex boyfriend. I loved him, and still do. I forgive him but that does not mean i am getting back with him or that it does not hurt.
Jimmy is my friend. He is so nice. and i want him to see the god that i see.
I am single, and i am hurting.
But i will deal with it. Just like i deal with all problems of my life. And many people will not see me struggle.
I will cope in my ways. and everyone will worry about zack.
Can it just freakin be over?
I am so sick and tired of people looking at me like I am in wrong doin. Yess this is about Zack! You know what I am 16 and i thought i was in love with zack. But he hurt me so bad for the last time. all of those times he was in wrong doing with other girls, i just let it go. and looked like a fool. And finally i stand up for myself cuz he kissed a girl and people see me as the bad person. I brought Jimmy to club. He doesnt really believe in god. he is lost. I want to show him christ thru me and thru club. But people see it as me trying to get back at zack
Why does this stupid teenesge world revolve around Him????
Get a clue. He shows he is hurting. I dont show it! But that doesnt mean i am not hurting. Jesus i am hurting so bad. but it never matters.
I am hurting and it seems like no one cares.
So let me set the record.
Zack is my ex boyfriend. I loved him, and still do. I forgive him but that does not mean i am getting back with him or that it does not hurt.
Jimmy is my friend. He is so nice. and i want him to see the god that i see.
I am single, and i am hurting.
But i will deal with it. Just like i deal with all problems of my life. And many people will not see me struggle.
I will cope in my ways. and everyone will worry about zack.
Seriously!
I have decided the one thing I hate about being in high school is all the stupid drama! It is so beyond gay!
You know what,
Screw em' if they can't take a joke!
Im very frustrated with teenage girls! How do young life leaders deal? lol
Whatever. Im feeling way better today so i will just say whatever!
You know what,
Screw em' if they can't take a joke!
Im very frustrated with teenage girls! How do young life leaders deal? lol
Whatever. Im feeling way better today so i will just say whatever!
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Hospital
So It was monday night/ tuesday morning i felt sick. I was vomitting like crazy! finaly after puking 4 times at home i went to the hospital. I puked again in the car. and once more at the hospital. It was very exciting. My mom said i was white as a ghost. i had to get an IV in me. i was completely dehydrated.
The first time the nurse tried to put the iv in, she seriously was digging around in my arm! it was pretty darn painful! she didnt even end up using that arm. It was crazy when i got the iv the first bag took like an hour. they told me i might get the feeling of being cold. The first bag was fine, my hand was cold and that was it. But the second bag they wanted it to go faster so it was a strem not a drip. my body got the shakes! i was so cold. but they give you blankets like from the dryer. so with 3 of those blankets i was still shivering. But the nurses loved me! one nurse came in and sat with me for like an hour and just talked. she was super nice! another nurse came in and was like a mom. she was like petting my hair and holding my hand. they were very nice!
of course you know me, no matter how much pain i am in, I have to have fun! So this thing on my head, was my puke bag. Me and my mom joked that it was like a whale condom. then we debated whether a walrus penis was bigger that a whales....lol. Either way, it looked like a huge condom!
Now i am on bedrest! I cant drive because the pills i take make me fall asleep. its funny because i will be like watching tv and not realize i have fallen asleep. its great. so if you call sorry if i dont answer. I am most likely sleeping. What a fun adventure!
The first time the nurse tried to put the iv in, she seriously was digging around in my arm! it was pretty darn painful! she didnt even end up using that arm. It was crazy when i got the iv the first bag took like an hour. they told me i might get the feeling of being cold. The first bag was fine, my hand was cold and that was it. But the second bag they wanted it to go faster so it was a strem not a drip. my body got the shakes! i was so cold. but they give you blankets like from the dryer. so with 3 of those blankets i was still shivering. But the nurses loved me! one nurse came in and sat with me for like an hour and just talked. she was super nice! another nurse came in and was like a mom. she was like petting my hair and holding my hand. they were very nice!
of course you know me, no matter how much pain i am in, I have to have fun! So this thing on my head, was my puke bag. Me and my mom joked that it was like a whale condom. then we debated whether a walrus penis was bigger that a whales....lol. Either way, it looked like a huge condom!
Now i am on bedrest! I cant drive because the pills i take make me fall asleep. its funny because i will be like watching tv and not realize i have fallen asleep. its great. so if you call sorry if i dont answer. I am most likely sleeping. What a fun adventure!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
I like Nerds!
So i met this guy named Jimmy. He is the cutest nerd! Lol..... Its so funny. I havent really met boys since dating Zack. But he is the coolest friend! I am not really looking into dating yet. I am just not ready. But it is so fun to flirt with him. I totally beat him at poker! but he totally knows all the lingo of poker.....its great. I so have a cool new friend! But he is like a nerd/egoist/cute eyes/intelligent guy. He has the biggest vocabulary i have ever heard! total nerd! but i like him!
on another note, i stayed the night at the jelso's. awesome. the night wasnt the best. but i hung out with shelby and got to know her better. it was good. and then today after church i had a chance to talk with tony, what an awesome talk. I have been feeling like when i go to church, its like we talk about this narrow path and about sin and what it really means to be a christian. i have just been struggling with the thought of why do i do things i hate, when i really truely want to be a christian. but tony explained it a little better. the verse he gave me was Romans 7:15.I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.It totally cleared it up. i am on the right path, but have a battle of my sinful nature and being a child of god. Its a daily battle but I will try my hardest, cuz my race isnt here. and when my race is done, I want Him to say Good Job Hannah you made it. you were my faithful servant.
old picture of them, but i like it!
My thoughts,
Saturday, January 3, 2009
New Chapter
Well i went to sleep last night feeling very sick, I had a runny nose, headache, and my eye would not stop watering. It was not very fun. I swear people called me like 20 times! It was so annoying! anyways,
This morning I woke up to Zackery telling me he had cheated on me last night......It makes me think I should have answered his phone calls and this wouldnt have happened. some reason i want to put this blame on me. Its hard stuff. But either way it was his fault. With that, I drove over there and told him it was over. The last 11 months were great. some ups and downs but i wouldnt trade it for the world. This is hard to deal with. I gave him back the promise ring he had given me for christmas. It just didnt have meaning anymore.
I dont really know what to do with myself. Im single. Thats so weird. I planned my life around Zack. Now, there is no more Zack......
I need some ice cream. Something to take away the thoughts and memories of all that used to be
This morning I woke up to Zackery telling me he had cheated on me last night......It makes me think I should have answered his phone calls and this wouldnt have happened. some reason i want to put this blame on me. Its hard stuff. But either way it was his fault. With that, I drove over there and told him it was over. The last 11 months were great. some ups and downs but i wouldnt trade it for the world. This is hard to deal with. I gave him back the promise ring he had given me for christmas. It just didnt have meaning anymore.
I dont really know what to do with myself. Im single. Thats so weird. I planned my life around Zack. Now, there is no more Zack......
I need some ice cream. Something to take away the thoughts and memories of all that used to be
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)